Suicidal

Black tears fall
Blood drips to the floor
Eyes swollen
Music blaring
Note written
Cut after cut
Can't lie
Drop to the floor
Phone rings
Friends calling
Parents come home
Answers the phone
Door opens
Ambulance comes

Darkness

Don't you no I'm suffering
Can't you hear my mones
Can you hear my screams
I'm stuck in this black hole
Surrounded by darkness
How can I decide what’s right
I can’t win this fight
I'm loosing to you
How did we get here
Do you see what I've done
I'm killing myself
I'm suffering in this darkness of mine
How can i be true
When all i feel is pain

I'm Not Sorry

Sitting in the corner
You cry a million tears
Thinking on what to do
You grab a knife
And carve a line throw your arm
It's not enough
Grab a rope hang your head
Slit your throught
Take the step
Blead and choke
Hanging by your head
Parents come in
See them scream
One last breath
Is all you have

Relief

My hands are searching for it
How can i change who i am
My arms outstretched for relief
How can i change who i am
I cry
Cry everyday
I'm beginning to fade
Into a dark place
I'm dead
Now dead
I can't feel you
I feel nothing around me
Holding on to nothing
And so i cry
Cry all night
I see you
Wishing im alive
I can't feel anything around me
Take me to the darkness
The air i breath
Is death
How can i see the truth
When all i see is darkness
And so i cry
Cry all night
Wishing for relief

Weak

Why bother trying at all
Why bother fighting it
I've tried so hard
But I just can't quit
I hate to feel weak
Like I can't do anything
I used to be strong
But now I've lost it all
I try and try
But it all ends the same
Why do I try to act tough
When inside I'm weak
I keep trying everyday
But I'm still in the darkness
I'm always weak

Misery

Slit my wrist
Take my life
Pathetic crying
All these scars
End this pain
Just one more time
Tell me you love me
Killing myself
It's the only way
End this pain
Let me live
With out this misery

Hells Gates

Does it even matter
If I live or die
What are the reasons
For living this way
Would the tragedy
Be to much to bare
For me to end this life
Why do i have to live in darkness
For all eternity
This Insanity
Creeps up within my veins
Taking my step forward,
I take the knife
And cut deep through my chest
I'm slipping
Fading fast
I'm drowning deep in the crulity of depression
Empty face
Know one sees what's happening
Walking through
Hells gates

Shame

With the razor in hand
The time has come again
Tears in my eyes,
A towel by my side
Cutting deep into the wrist
Blood drips down my hand
Crying in shame
Of what I've done

Addicted

Seems like just yesterday
I seemed to be so strong
I used to stand tall
When everything felt right
But now i cant breath
I can't sleep
Here I am torn into pieces
I can't deny it, and i can't pretend
I'm Broken up, deep inside
I wish you could see these tears i cry
I wish i could tell you everything
I wish i could open up and let you in
I wish you could make me feel alright
For once in my life
This is all thats left of me
I'm broken up inside
I can't breath
I'm barely hanging on
I can't deny it, and i can't pretend
I'm losing myself
I wish you could see
I wish you could help
I can't cry anymore
It's beating me up
I wish you could see that
I'm torn into pieces
I can't deny it, and i can't pretend
I just wish you could help
It's like a drug
Eating me up
How can i tell you
I Just thought you could see
I can't breath
It's taking over me
It's like im gone
I feel like a ghost
I know i can't change it
It's like i can't breath
It's taking over me
I wish you could see
It's like i can't see
I'm addicted to it
It's taking over me
Can't you see thats it's killing me
I need you to see
I wish you could try
I need you to see

Insane Madness

So many cuts,
So many screams.
Maybe I'll make a cut,
Even deeper than before.
How can i resist the urge,
It calls to me,
Every single day
All i want to do is run away
From this insane madness.
What i want so much
Is to end this
No more tears
Just take the blade
And go deep into the wrist
Seeing red black blood

Random

Can't help but space out
Call me weird
I don't care
Cry all night
I'm a bitch
I know
I don't care
If you try to turn me into someone else
Get over it
You can't bring me down
Go ahead and try
I'm already down
I'm not a fool
So what if i cut
I'm changing
Inside I'm broken
But i can't care
I'm over everything
I don't care what you think
Kill me if you want
I'm already dead

Kill Me Now

Silent tears fall,
No truth resides,
Only shallow lies.
I see myself standing,
On top of my own grave,
This painful struggle,
I'm falling apart.
I wish I was dead,
I wish i wasent here,
My pain of all my fears,
These suicide thoughts
So kill me now,
End it all.

Cutter

My broken bloody soul
Is screaming, drowning, rotting in my
Pathetic life
I sit in my darkened room
With my walls painted pitch black
Seeing the blade
I score a line across my arm
The one thing thats suppose to help
But all i do is harm myself
I don't press too hard
But it's all i need
The blood that runs down my wrist
Controls the urge to cut some more

Terrified

She's crippled in a corner,
Too terrified to know whats going on
Lost in an empty world
She's full of sorrow and depression
She's crushed into pieces
Like broken glass
She can't put herself back together
All she feels is the sharp edge of the blade
Shes lost in an empty world as dark
As a Halloween night

Hell

My private hell
Where all my nightmares are held
Takes me down
And threatens to kill
Taking the blade
Slicing the wrist
Blood poures out
Fading to darkness
Hearing the howling
Seeing death
Knowing the truth
I'm now in hell
Every thing's worse
I feel heated breath
Feeling the pain
Wishing i was home
Back in bead
Feeling the sharp edge
Reliving my death
Hearing voices
Now Knowing the truth
It was all a dream

I Love You

As blood seeps down your arm
You sit and cry in pain
The broken glass beside the bath,
The water turning bloody red,
Laying down in your own blood,
You try to call for help,
You hear your family yelling,
Trying to break down the door,
As your pain starts to go away,
Your mom run's next to you,
She cry's in hurt of what you've done,
She says that she loves you,
But you can't speak,
You start to fade away,
Your last thought is i love you to.

Broken

Waking up feels like dying
Can't help but sit and cry
Going to school feels like death
Siting in class feels like hell
There's know release from cutting
How can i go on
Siting in the bathroom
Wanting to die
getting up
Starting the day over
Seconds fly like minutes
Body freezes still
Minutes to an hour,
Nothing is fine
Everything is crashing,
I have nothing left.
Feeling nothing but cold chills.

Sorry

I can’t stand my life
I can't live like this
All i want to do is die and end it all.
The pain of living is just the start,
I’m sorry that i have to do this
But it's all i have left
It started with hate, but now it’s little too late.
My life is a mess and all i can do is confess,
The inside hurts so much
It's killing me just to think about it
I’m sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused,
But in the end everything will be okay
I'm sorry for everything that I've done
I'm sorry for killing you
But this the only way out

Bloody Corpse

Pain grows stronger
Life no longer exists
Welcome to a world full of pain
Death and despair
Your dreams are know longer real
Your pain is so strong
The dead laugh at you
You are the sacrificial suicide
Hear your future screams
End it with a knife
Theres know time to change your mind
Your a bloody corpse

Confusion

Feelings of confusion
Feelings of death
Where do I belong
Where can i go
I'm trapped inside
With know were to go
Can't escape
Can't get out
The urge to scream
Consumes me
Thoughts of suicide
Corrupts me

Rape

A rapeseed in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
You feel like it's a monster
Coming out to get you
Release me from this prison I'm in
I'm trying to remain tame
But I'm struggling to hard
It's getting harder and harder
I'm giving up
I don't want this anymore
Every time i walk out the door
I feel him inside me
He's in my head
I feel him inside me
Touching me
Take away this life
Let me live in peace
I don't want to feel this anymore
Give me rest

Depth

I can't run away anymore
I have nothing left inside
I try to forget
But it all comes back to me
I feel broken and lifeless
I try to give up
I can't go on
I'm constantly ignoring the pain consuming me
But this pain is to deep
My only peace is to give up
I can't lie anymore
It's killing me
I can't live like this
I'm falling to deep in my depth
My only hope is to give up

Rocky cliff ( part 1)

The air is so cold against my bare cheeks.
My feet are so numb from the freezing rocks.
I stand on the edge of this rocky cliff.
And hope that soon i will be saved.
Staring down into the oceans white tips.
The waves crash roughly against the rocks below.
The wind pushes me forward just a bit more.
And every time I almost lose my grip.

Mistakes ( part 2)

What do I do,
Now that I've reached the edge?
This cliff is to steep and to plain below.
So many miles upon empty air
With know hand to hold,
To guide me down through the end.
Know one to catch me if i fall,
And know one to save me from my mistake.

Forever Lost ( part 3)

Thoughts of dying
Gazing into the black, ice cold water
So glassy and so smooth.
I think of death
Am i a prisoner of my own mind
I try to throw myself away
To land in water
And drown and choke.
To never awaken.
Can i be saved
Can i return and be whole again
Or am i forever lost
To never return.

The End ( part 4)

I feel nothing but pain and anger
As i look down off the cliff
I feel lonely
I have know one to save me
How can i  go on like this
I'm tearing up into pieces
All of my dreams have been ripped away
I'm so confused on what to do
As i begin to fall
I think of all my happiness and misery
Hiting rock bottom
And drowning in ice cold water
I slowly die

Prayer

They'll never know what you fear
The trust will die
Every second I'm collecting dust
I'm coming over like a suicide
Everything is the same as before
I'm dyeing every second
Every thing's complicated
It's taking me over quickly
I can't help it
No medication can cure what i have
It's coming down with a single cut
Do i belong to heaven or to hell
Every second i die
It's killing me
I'm coming like a suicide
It's taking me over
Everything is the same
How can i cure it
It's killing me over and over
Say a prayer for me
I'm going over to suicide

Black Hole

There's a big black hole
And it's eating me up
Some day's i fade away
And become blank
Like a memory
I would rather be somewhere else
Than be hear right now
Somewhere out there anywhere
I don't care
Just get me out of this hell

Madness

Theres voices in my head
Whispering that i should end this madness
That I should just let it all go
I find myself listening
Thinking that i should
I don't no who i am
I just no the madness

Blood

We are all blinded by the truth
It suffocates us all
It takes us to the darkness
Never to return
Blood stained walls
leaves us to death
Never to see light
Never to see life

Pit Of Hell

Darkness looms around every corner,
Seeing black and red,
The colors of the dead,
It leaves scars and sores deep within
Trapping my soul in a dungeon
My soul fights for release
But darkness fights even harder
Seeing light
But can never get
Soul dies in the pit of hell.

One cut leads to another

One cut leades to another
To so many more
Till you can't stop
It all becomes a blur
Your arm fills up
To so much sadness
You can't handle it
You give up
How can you live
With the way you feel
The emptiness filling you up
You give up

Darkness Of The Night

I GIVE THE DARKNESS THE DEPRESSION THAT RIDES THROW ME
AND MY THOUGHTS TO THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT
THOUGHTS OF SORROW AND SUICIDE
I GIVE MY BLOOD TO THE EARTH
THE WEAKNESS IN ME MAKES THE PAIN OF DYING EVEN STRONGER
I FEEL EMPTY FROM THE LOST OF LIFE
I GIVE MY BLOOD FOR THE DEPRESSION
I GIVE EVERYTHING TO FEEL ALIVE
I NOW HAVE NOTHING
I'M NOW DEAD

Bleeding Me Out

I feel that I'm all by myself
That i have no one else
This depression is bleeding me out
There's never relief for me
It always has a hold on me
I can't break free
I feel like running away everyday
But it won't stop
It's going to kill me
One day or another

My Own Private Hell

My soul is surrounded by my fears
It leaves me broken into pieces
It's Impossible to be made whole
My tears come until they drown me out
I lye in one spot
Wanting to die
The depression destroyed me
It left me empty and closed off
All memories forgotten
Lying in my own private hell

Solitude

Wind touches my face blowing it's coldness
My soul has frozen in a solitude blink
Can't hide my fears into this world
I hide in a corner full of darkness
The desire to tell comes to mind
But can never tell
Visions of pain, feelings of fault
Depression comes, sinking in my heart
I try not to give up
Frustrating thoughts come to me
I'm blind with this pain
Maybe its time to give up.

Bloody Body

I stare into the darkness.
As I look down at the razor in my hand.
Should i do it.
I'm already dead inside anyways.
As i put the razor to my wrist,
I think of all the things wrong that happened in my life.
I think of my family,
The good times.
Nothing matters to me anymore,
I'm already dead,
No joy or hope.
No love or sadness.
No anger or happiness.
Only a dark cold body.
Will they care now.

Blood Stained Walls

I try to cry out from the inside,
But my soul did not pour itself out enough
Blood stains the walls,
Flaming black,
There killing me on the inside,
They don't care.
I feel no reason to carry on with my life
My heart is bleeding.
But on the outside I look fine,
You can't tell but the inside is eternal hell
I get caught up in the moment of depression,
Before i no it my body's lying on the ground.
With your anger and hate im able to choose my fate.
Body lays on the Flore ice cold.

Voices Of Death

Pain always controls my life
It chooses my every step
When I think I can't take no more
I hear the voices of death

My Mask

I hide behind my mask
So you can't see the real me.
At first glance
You think I'm in a happy place
The truth is, It's a lie
But you can't see the real me.
You don't no the real me.

Can't Fight It

It comes again and again and drags me down,
A hopelessness in which I cant fight
My heart gives out without much of a fight,
And I'm lost again in a starless night.

See Who I Am

Come into my world
Try to understand me,
See who i am,
See the real me,
Free your minds,
And find away in,
Hear my silence,
Break through, And find me,
This is not the end.
I will always be there for you.

My Mask

I hide behind my mask,
lost in my thoughts,
I cry and cry,
Trying too let it all out,
Drowning in my thoughts,
I try too tell you but I can't,
I never can.

My Soul

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colors seem to fade away
I can't reach my soul

Prison

Trapped in the dark, of my own private hell.
Scared and alone, with no one to tell.
My mind is a prison, from which there is no escape.

Empty

Looking in the mirror,
At this invisible face,
This soul has vanished,
Without a trace,
A soul that was happy,
Now lives in a fight,
Walking in the shadows,
Of my empty life.

Death

I am crying inside
But nobody cares
I am screaming out
But nobody hears
Loneliness consumes me,
Surrounded by Pitch black
Feeling cold, and seeing my death.